I saw them - I saw Death Cab for Cutie! :'D

Oh man, they were much better than I expected.
When I arrived, I had so much butterflies in my stomach, it was unbelivable.
I wasn't even like that with Paramore.
Frightened Rabbit - their support band - was really good too.

Anyway, Nick looked at me once and Chris looked at me several times :'D
It was so cool.

If anyone wants to see pictures, they're here.

They played: Bixby Canyon Bridge, I Will Possess Your Heart, No Sunlight, Cath, Grapevine Fires, Your New Twin Sized Bed, Long Division, Soul Meets Body, Crooked Teeth, I Will Follow You Into The Dark, The New Year, The Employment Pages, Title and Registration and Transatlanticism for the final encore :')
There might have been one or two more I missed out.
It's not all in that order though.
Although Bixby Canyon Bridge was first and Transatlanticism was last.
It was so amazing.
Transatlanticism is my favourite Death Cab song, so the fact that it was the final encore...
It just gave it a perfect ending.

I should be doing my Geography homework.
It's 50 marks in total and it's due tomorrow and I haven't began it.
I'm seeing Death Cab for Cutie tomorrow :) I still can't believe it to be honest.

Anyway, Geography homework. It's 4 questions.
First one is 20 marks.
Second is 10 marks.
Third - 12 marks.
Forth - 8 marks.

:/
It's so ridiculous and it's Higher too, so that means I have to write lots of detail and shit.
I hate Geography so much.

Ohh, I passed my English essay :)
That's two Higher English essays I've passed.
And it's the only two I've done, so I'm happy :)
Aha.

Okay, all-time top albums:
1/ All We Know Is Falling - Paramore
2/ Transatlancism - Death Cab for Cutie.
3/ Futures - Jimmy Eat World.
4/ I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love - My Chemical Romance.
5/ Plans - Death Cab for Cutie.
6/ Riot! - Paramore.
7/ Narrow Stairs - Death Cab for Cutie.
8/ The Black Parade - My Chemical Romance.
9/ Bleed American - Jimmy Eat World.
10/ The I Heart Revolution - Hillsong United.

Ah but I have so many more albums I want to put down >:[

I know I live in the UK but dude, I am so nervous for the election results.
It's like watching the final programme of Big Brother - who's out, who's in?
That type of thing, except to a whole new level.
I really want Obama to win. America needs a decent change.
Ahhh, I don't know what else to say now.
I learnt about American politics in school and it's far more interesting over there than here, in the UK.
I love how even the young generation of America are so into politcs.
Over here, if you talk about that, people automatically think you're either:
1/ Really dull.
2/ Rich.
3/ A nerd.

O.o
Anyway, whoever wins this election, I hope it's for the best.

Wow, Parasecrets this week was just... I don't know. - how unopinionated of me.
It's just, I felt like it was so harsh but dw, I've always been a sensitive person.
There is so much Hayley hate and I don't get it. I mean, sure, she's changed a little bit but doesn't everyone?
I mean, I haven't. I'm still the same since I was a kid. Mentally anyway.
And she's got a ~boyfriend now, so she's gonna be influenced by him and such.
It just kinda upsets me of why some of these fans seem to hate Hayley so much.
I mean, they are too honest... and shouldn't even think like that. I mean, I love Hayley and I'm not like,
"She's such an attention whore" or whatever.
I mean, these fans grew up with Paramore... and now they're just gonna turn their backs to the singer?
All Hayley has done is growing up. Ffs, give her a break.
She updates paramoremusic and they guys don't.
She sends in pictures and they guys rarely do.

She is an amazing person, with strong views and she should in fact be respected for that.
But she isn't.
I don't get some Paramore fans. I really don't.
No offence but Paramore fans aren't the nicest of people.
I mean, the Paramore fans I'm friends with on lj - they're good.
Paramore fans I know in real life - they're good.
But some... They're so unsociable. When I went to see Paramore in Glasgow, no fan spoke to us.
We all just stood there like, "..." for hours. Nobody was speaking with each other.
It was different when I went to see other bands.

Anyway, I don't wanna keep complaining about this.
But I'm just kinda... [stupidly] upset right now.
And it's annoying me.

i made an account, here (:

Yesterday: Me, my friend (Joanne) and my sister (Louise) made a SHIROCK Promotional video, as Wayne and Garth and my sister being the depressed little kid... aha.
I just wanted to make this video. I know I've helped them enough and such but they're like... I don't know. Let's put it this way. I'd want to promote my friends if they were in a band. Its not that I'm ~obsessive or anything.
I hate that word.

So, it was a lot of fun to film. It was cold and oh, my gosh, the editing was so frustarating.
But this was my first ever video that I've edited and such, so yeah...
I'm glad we made it (:

I'm the dork with the orange hair and very bad American accent.
What'd'ya expect? I'm British.
Here it is:

So, in my last post - I don't know if you read it - but I bought The Sims 2 Seasons. It is amaaazing.
You can make 8 people in one family.
I made the "Paramore" family, hahaha
Jeremy, Josh, Hayley, Zac, Taylor... Sarah, CHAD and Josh's girlfriend, ahaha, who I've called "Eva" 'cause I don't know her name and I don't know, she looks like an Eva, y/y?
Anyway, Chad is so lazy in the Sims.... All he does - literally - is lay on his bed, watching TV, sleep, EAT (Omg, he eats so much) and that's it.
But it's summer now in the Sims and I'm forcing him to do gardening. He's growing tomatos! And has a gold gardening badge, hahaha.
He's part of the gardening club too.

Anyways. Taylor :D He is just so cute. In the Sims, it was snowing and there was lots of snow and Zac and Jeremy were having a snowball fight and I wanted Taylor to make a snowman but he stood by the door, with a snowball in his "thought bubble" and signalled he didn't wanna go out because they were having a snowball fight - so cute.
So, I got Zac and Jeremy to stop with the snowball fighting and then Taylor went outside and made a snowman.
And Sarah and Jeremy - haha, they're so much like Sarah and Jeremy!
It's kinda funny, I never tell them to kiss and stuff but I'll be like, "Where is Jeremy and Sarah? Haven't seen them in a while."
So I cut to them and they're making out, without me even telling them too! Oh and they're married in this.
So are Chad and Hayley...
And so are Josh and Eva (bahaha, that name).
Anyways. I only did that so I didn't need to get them to be close, 'cause that takes ages and it's boring.
But I made Josh and Hayley "woo-hoo" together and Chad and Eva caught them - DUM DUM DUM - and their hearts were broken and Eva was like, "I WANT A DIVORCE!" And Chad was like, "I'M SO ANGRY RN, RAH RAH RAH, I NEED TO GO EAT."
And Josh and Hayley were like, "Eh, let's make out again." Their cheating started out when Chad spent too much time ignoring Hayley BY SLEEPING ALL THE TIME. I don't get him.
It is the best game ever though.
It's a little weird actually. All Josh and Eva ever do is play chess with each other :/
It's like, "Why?" Hahah. So boring.
And Hayley and Sarah are good friends, they have snowball fights with each other.
Taylor is definitely my favourite.
Ooh, because Chad got a gold badge for gardening, he also got a wishing well and he wished for romance! Hahaha.
He wished for romance, like, four times, so now he has five loverrrs - including Hayley.
Little weird.
AND THEN HE'S ALL ANGRY AT Hayley for doing Josh.
I wanna go play the Sims rn D:

Aw, Taylor wishes for romance too. He's got one girlfriend, how sweet.
She looks a little freaky though. She's a mail-lady, hahah.
And Hayley got mad at Chad and wished for romance - she got a fireman.
And Josh just got a drink out of the wishing well, hahaha.
Jeremy and Sarah were too busy making out to notice a wishing well.

Well, I might post screen caps later.
Such a good game<3
Byeee.

Wow, well, I haven't posted anything meaningful in a long time, so here we go, here's my attempt, haha.
Today was good. I haven't been to school this week at all though.
Monday, I was in such pain -_____-. Tuesday, I overslept. Wednesday, I didn't know which bus to catch!
Stupid reasons, I know but I'm silly like that.
Umg, Thursday tomorrow. Doubt I'll be in. I mean, this is the last week until the holidays and I have so much on my mind, worries, concerns, ideas, intentions, ect... And omg, THIRTY-SIX DAYS until Death Cab for Cutie. I cannot waaait.
I love 'em (:
--
I was talking to my mum earlier, just about life in general. We do that, now and then. Don't spend any time together but maybe one night, when she's not tired, we stay up until very late, just talking. Talking about everything; life, experiences, memories, personality, pets!
Everything and anything. It's really good. Why pay for shrinks when you've got parents?
(Lol, besides the fact that you might wanna talk about your parents behind their backs).
I feel so bad for everyone right now ):
I mean, Jade Goody has cancer. Wendy whatsherface (used to be in Eastenders) has got cancer.
A friend online knows someone who's got cancer (if you want, I won't mention your name but your an lj friend.)
Just want you to know that he's in my prayers and thoughts.
I sometimes wonder why God would allow such terrible things in the World but like I said, I was talking to my mum earlier and I explained to her why there is famine in the World and that it's not God's fault.
People always say, "If there is a God, He wouldn't allow such famine in the World."
Actually, God wanted us - the human race - to work together as "ONE".
God and his son, Jesus - they are "One".
The human race - We are "One".
God's intentions for us were to work together as one.
All America, the UK and other money-grabbing countries do is make more money off this poorer countries, like Africa.
We're not working together, people! Not like we should. And therefore, it's not God's fault there is famine in the World.
It's our own flaws.
But then there's the questions like, "Why would God want that person to have cancer?"
Here's some experience from you here - my dad killed himself. Why would God want that?
Well, God has life paths for everyone. He knows the outcome of things and tries to help people in advance.
If my dad was still alive... I'd be fucked up. No doubt about it. My dad killed himself because he was high on drugs and got paranoid.
Well, whatever. I don't mind talking about this by the way. I'm hiding a lot of stuff from you all anyway. A lot more pain.
I don't feel comfortable saying it. I was talking about it to my mum earlier and talking about it really brought back the pain.
I could actually momentarily feel the tremendous heart break.
Anyway, I don't wanna dwell on that. What I'm trying to say is, sure, there is going to be painful experiences in our life but everything happens for a reason. If God doesn't exist, fate does. And if fate doesn't exist, something else does. That something else makes sure everything happens for a reason.
People need to believe in something. It makes us have a purpose.
Even if you believe that there isn't a God - that's still a belief, you know.
As long as you hold onto that, you have a purpose.
You could also believe in other things, like, your family means the World to you. That's your purpose.
Anyway, everything happens for a reason! Trust me, that's from my own experiences. Life always improves.
If any of these people do (unfortunately) pass away, of course it'll be upsetting but upsetting for a reason.
Keep that in mind.
Life will always improve.
Besides, it's good to have flaws in your life. That's what will make you a stronger person.
It's true. If you have a perfect life, you won't be able to tell the difference between good and bad.
You won't know how to cope with the bad stuff...
Example - Paris Hilton couldn't even last in jail.
I mean, yes, jail is horrible but dude, come on, she was getting better treatment than other people.
I'm sure her father made sure of that.

Anyway, that's my post for today. Bleugh, wasn't meaningful as I had hoped....
The song I'm listening to is meaningful though<3
Ugh, Ben Gibbard's lyrics ARE poetry. Cannot wait to see them.

Edit: I bought The Sims 2 Seasons.
OMG, it is THE BEST GAME EVER  :-DDDD.

Edit (again): AHA, nobody is online on msn.
Except ONE guy I don't even know! Hahaha.

Edit (yup, again): This morning, my mum was like,
"Do you want to go into school today?" and I'm like, "..." 'Cause she asked me, aha. So, I'm like, "Umm...." And she's like, "What would a good mum say?" HAHA, so I got to choose what she gotta say. What freedom. I was like, "Um... She'd ask how I am and if I really, really didn't wanna go in, she'd understand." HAHA. So, yeah, that got me the day off. Also the fact that I was so confused about the buses. We had this mini-school trip thingy to see Macbeth, ahaha. But I was confused about the buses and agh, didn't know where to go. Plus, I hadn't got anything organised and didn't know what to bring.
So, yeah, didn't go....

I'm gonna go now.

So, today was shit :/

It rained constantly, it was so cold and ugh.

Things didn't get better once I was at home :/
My mum told me she's getting tickets for my brother and his friend to go to Belgium because she was all like, "Think about it... He won't be here for the October holidays."
So this conversation continues like this.

Me: They're not staying at Oma and Opa's are they?
Mother: Yes. Of course. Why not?
Me: Because I don't want John's friend there.

- Btw, Oma and Opa are my grandparents who live in Belgium and John is my brother -

Mother: So?
Me: So, I don't want him to be there. I don't want him staying at Oma and Opa's.

- Anyway, it continues with that...
I'm not being selfish, it's just, It's worse enough John and his chavvy friends come into our own house, but a place where I basically grew up, Belgium, my grandparents apartment. I know that sounds selfish but all my life, I've shared. I've never been comfortable in certain places but Belgium. I love my Grandparents' apartment so much. To have Ben (my brother's friend) "invade" their apartment... Okay, again, I know that sounds selfish but... Ugh. Everyone has a "Happy place" in their mind, from childhood. My great memories were filled with Belgium and being with my grandparents. I hardly had any other good memories :/
School, I don't like because I feel uncomfortable. My brother's friends go there, I know them, they're "invading" my life. I know that sounds ridiculous but it's true. Now that I know them, they are naturally a part of my life - because I know them. Whenever I think of school, I think of all these chavs. Whenever I think of home, I think of my brother's friends (all these chavs) in my brother's room, swearing and smoking and shit. I hate it :/
I'm not spoilt, far from it. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE CALL ME SELFISH.
I'm everything but selfish! I try so hard to be a good person but people always say I'm not.
My brother called me selfish today :/
I'm not, I just don't want his friend invading my happy place :/
My grandparents' apartment is the ONLY place I can't connotate with my brother's friends :/
The ONLY place :/
I don't want the place I grew up in to be different :[
Everytime I told my mum or sister that, they just thought I was being stupid and selfish :[
They just don't understand and to be honest, I can't really explain why I don't want my brother's friend there.
I just don't :/ It's not HIS memory :[
I don't want to share that one great memory I have with people I can't trust :[
My brother's friend is chavvy :[
But my grandparents like him and that's what hurts the most. They can't even see what my brother has changed into.
A horrible, bossy, selfish, angry, mean, stubborn, lazy, offensive little c*nt :/
I mean, seriously - he's getting a free trip to Belgium, WITH HIS FRIEND, just because my mum is a pushover :[

My own sister doesn't even understand me anymore because she just thinks I'm being stupid :[
Oma and Opa are the only family I have left in Belgium. The only good memory I have in that place.
I just want it to remain untouched, that memory. Once my brother and his friend go there, I won't have any happy place because every other place has had my brother's friends in :[
And whenever I'm around them, I feel uncomfortable and offended :[
Can't anyone understand? I hate feeling like this :[
I hate not having anybody that understands me :[

Today I was off school. I could have chosen to go in but I didn't want to.
At 2:30pm, I had a doctor's appointment, where I got a ~minor operation on my toe.
IT FUCKING HURTS RN.
I mean, the doc injected both sides of my toe, to numb it.
Lemme tell you, that was as painful as hell. The injections, in the most sensitive part of your toe, right near the bone. FUCKING OUCH.
I mean, at least that pain only lasted for like, two seconds. Or ten at the most.
But afterwards... Fucking hell. I don't swear usually but that just comes to show how much pain I am in rn.
It's 00:41am as I am typing this and I tried to go to sleep, whilst watching Howl's Moving Castle but I failed, I couldn't. It's the constant throbbing, stinging, soreness on my toe that's keeping me awake. It was hurting so much, I actually even started crying.
Okay, that sound pathetic but it's so fucking painful.
I should stop swearing. It's not good English. I've been taking painkillers all day and they only start working within 45 minutes, or so. Then they last for about 3 hours.
Then they hurt SO MUCH (bit where I cried ¬.¬) for an hour. THEN you can take the next lot of painkillers.
It's so stupid. I need the strong stuff. This lame stuff doesn't even work that well.
And this whole entry has turned into my pain ¬.¬
How ~humorous.

I was watching Howl's Moving Castle, so I think I'm gonna get back to that.
I really hope the pain goes soon :(
At least I get another day off tomorrow.

Also, go look at my last post, before this one.
It has many pictures of Josh ;-D
I just put it on public rn.

It's 2:05pm and I should be in bed.
I have school tomorrow.
Ah, well.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSH.

I'm taking antibiotics and feeling really sick rn.
Anyone know how I can prevent feeling or being sick? :(

I should really go to bed now.
School tomorrow.

It sucks 'cause there's no running water in my bathroom :(
I dnw to go back to school, until it's fixed.

Oh and I have a new course of antibiotics to take.
Greeeat :/

I got a new MP3 player today.
It's 4MB.

I also went to see "Tropics Thunder".
It was pretty good.

Well, goodnight.

I just realised that this morning, I forgot to put on make up, hahaha.
So, I went to school with no make up on O.o

I don't wear much make up anyway. I think it's so ugly when someone wears so much make up, they're freakin' orange!
Like Alan Carr says,
"And they're all like, 'It's natural, it's natural...'
Yeah, if your father fucked a Wotsit."
ROFL.

I feel so sick rn.
Me and my friend Joanne made macaroni cheese in hospiltality and it was awful.
Yet, I insisted on finishing it O.o
It tasted alright at the time but now, Bleugh.
I hate cheese O.o

Rn I'm watching Doctor Who. I'm actually really getting into it.
It's good :-)

Well, yeah, that's my blog for the day.
I should write about more interesting and relevent topics.

She left her fear on the side of the road.

Kneeling down in the wet grass to pray.
She held her hands up to the dark sky,
Calling its light from the Heavens.

There needed to be a reason for this pain.
And He was already the answer.
'Do not ask and you will not be answered'.

"Father, help me..."
As blunt as her words were,
He listened.

And she was saved.